It begins with a dark glowing ember
something black burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh
pain is the only thing I feel
scars all I see
Oh no the fires burning my insides again
what can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Face consumer reason leaving only ashes left
you will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
(Chorus)
I know that it's killing me
and it's poisoning the best of me
what I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead
That is how I chose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone
(to the bone)
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight
And after this I feel as empty as the night before
feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)
(Chorus)
I know that it's killing me
and it's poisoning the best of me
what I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead
Calling, calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul
are riddled with self-doubt
Crawling, crawling out
my will to fight will more than suffice
when others would lay down
It's only as dark as you make it
(Chorus)
I know that it's killing me
and it's poisoning the best of me
what I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead
