I did this to myself.
At least now I know there's no one there who can save me, who can help, who tells me how to face my bitter half.
I've lost the dots so I can not draw the line.
I'm only craving for better times.
The brightest minds aren't able to save. It's hard to comprehend.
I'm staring death in the eyes again.
I will fight alone.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
They keep infesting me with plagues.
Scrambled thoughts leave me questioning everything.
I'm filled with doubt.
Leaving me stranded with no tools to survive, impulses carry me away. But I can't conform to the boundaries they have set so bring me down to my knees and let the dark ones face me.
Never forget, I don't get to battle ghosts that overpower my soul.
The trials forced me to see.
And I will try to understand that it made who I am today.
Free me, convince the heart it's worth the conflict.
Now that it's clear that the choice was never mine to make, I idle my lungs and let them take me away.
To understand is to accept that fear is just a part of this life so I will never let it chase me away.
Our light retained within a vessel while condemned to the rules of this universe.
Prior to life we will choose the path we take. We need to worship our lives for we knew everything.
Commence your journey and give in to your fate.
Now let me show you what it truly means to be alive.
